Holy shit, it’s 2025. Yet another year has gone by and I feel like I’m drifting in terms of hobbies and personal goals.
What Happened in 2024?!
The game is going well, and things are moving. I’ve reduced the scope a bit, and it’s closed to being feature complete, but unpolished. Still not sure exactly how much I want to polish it, but I’m getting excited to have a complete project.
I got reeeeally into Magic: The Gathering, so that’s been taking a ton of my time. It’s gotten me really interested in making a TCG, but I realize that making a physical game is probably going to be money loser. Regardless, I’ve got ideas.
The FUTURE!
I really just want to finish this game and move onto another project. I specifically chose this type of game because it wasn’t something I would be precious about. I could cut features until I had something workable and not feel like I was compromising my ‘artistic vision’. That said, I think that was a mistake because without having a clear plan and goal, and lacking the passion for the project makes it pretty tedious to work on it.
Furthermore, I’m realizing what I do and don’t enjoy about game dev. I enjoy design and programming. I don’t really enjoy visuals. I’m way more interested in telling stories and interesting gameplay mechanics than I am with ensuring something looks amazing. For the next project, I’m going to look through the asset bundles I’ve purchased in the past and try to craft something based on those as a design limitation.
I also want to take inventory of my hobbies and declutter shit I don’t need. I have so much magic stuff (both MTG and magic tricks), as well as hundreds of yoyos and TTRPG stuff. My desk is super cluttered and my bookshelf is overflowing. So I need to ask myself, “what am I trying to get out of this hobby?” then work towards that, instead of just drowning in stuff that I couldn’t possible work through in a lifetime.
Lastly, I want to start being okay with just enjoying stuff. Like if I play video games all day, I feel guilty that I spent time being unproductive despite having a fun day. I want to allow myself to have fun like that more often and not feel like I need to be doing something productive 100% of the time.
So yeah… to recap: do better, do more, but be okay when I don’t.
Kind of Antsy 